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| 10:45am 30/10/2005 |
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Last night was vals party... HAPPY BIRTHDY HUN.
I hope she had a good time, and that's all i really hvae to say about that.
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| First Update in a LONG time |
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| 08:43am 29/10/2005 |
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mood:  groggy music: none
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For all the times that you hurt me in the past recent weeks, I'm done with you. I don't even think you realize how upset you make me without even trying. I'm done trying to hold on to old memories that basically don't even matter to you anymore, by the way that you shun me everytime I try to say something to you. Oh well, I'll be seeing you around still but it's not worth even saying this to you, because you will end up blowing up in my face or just turning your back on me and telling eveyone "can you believe she said that to me?" or something along the lines of how bitchy Im being.
Whatever, maybe I am just being bitchy, but it hurts so much to think that the reality you thought you never had to face is being thrown up to you so unexpectedly.
Well I worked last night, have to work today, and i have to work tomorrow! *thumbs up....*
Vals party tonight should be grand! I'll be able to see Daryl and Matt from ages ago, and be able to chill it up with other kids, but I'm staying sober tonight because I'm going to do the best that I can to prevent Val's house from being trashed. rad.
My grandparents finally were able to score Billy Joel tickets!!! YAY! i'm so stoked about that because Ive wanetd to see this show for over 2 years! Screw what other people say about it being boring and a bad musical, I just love his music so much that i don't really care about the theatrics.
Ok well time do work before I have to go to work today... well law that is.
Woah this post was really boring, oh well now I'm in the typing mood for law.
Dave Chapell is my idol. |
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| 01:04am 11/09/2005 |
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How do you know when you expect too much from others? is it when u have to talk to other people and figure out that maybe what you want isn't even there... so maybe there's no use in even trying. Maybe holding on to so many memories is just as painful as realizing what you thought u stil had, died a long time ago. Hmm, well call me crazy but maybe what i thought was there, never really was, and maybe the whole relationship never really was much of one in the first place. But i won't think of it that way, cause that'll just tear me apart even more.
At this point i would just rather know from that person if they would like there to be no relationship at all, than for me to keep hoping that they want one to be as much as i do.
Do me a favour and pick up the phone and let me know sometime... but then again i've been waiting for over a year now, i suppose a couple more days wouldn't hurt. Please pop my naieve "bubble" and let me know straight up... cause it's been too long that this has been going on.
Teleg. I still and always will love you as friend... will you? |
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| Back To School, Back to Reality |
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| 09:42am 05/09/2005 |
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mood:  accomplished music: Jack Johnson mix
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Well this is my first entry since like.... well i don't know when. But I've deicded that I'm going to start updating more often, because although it may not always be something highly intelligent or witty, i do have stuff to say, or type.
Now i just came back from a run... the first one of a LONG time and i noticed a few things. One was that, never go running in my neighborhood any earlier than 10 in the summer, because I only come in contact with people who are at least 30 years my senior, and it made me feel really old... but actually i think it was good isa w no one my age, because then they wouldn't have had to see a gross sweaty girl in an oversized "CAWTHRA ATHLETICS" t-shirt and spandex. Oh lord, I am so out of shape it's not even funny. I think i have ate too many baked good this sumemr for my own good. But that will no longer be a problem... beacuse as of yesterday i worked my last shift ever at the good 'ol Bala Bakery.
This summer has been indescribable. It has been neither good or bad, boring nor exciting. Althought i didn't see everyone this summer that i wanted to, i did see alot of my really good friends, and i met alot of new people too. I have learned that a frodo-looking hottie who has similar interests may not be the nicest and autmatic excuse to have a relationship.
I have learned also that although people i was once really close with change, and if i really want to keep in contact with them, i need to make more of an effot , and i really need to think if in the end it's owrth all of the extra effort. Ah well, i guess for now I'm just going to ride it out, and live life as it comes.
This year i am really excited for, but still kinda nervous. For one thing, the guidance counsellor the next day after registration was not very accomadating and i therefore ahve to take the sciecne i want to in grade 12, so i now have a spare 2nd semester. But it makes sense in the end i guess, because the course is a grade 12 university course. I'm nervous for vocal, but I'm excited though because I'm finally taking vocal lessons.
Bah i'm statving, so im going to go eat a healthy breakfast, which will now be a new routine as opposed to my morning bakery snack. No more sweets for this fatty. |
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| 03:48pm 28/06/2005 |
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i hate wire hangers.. especiall the ones from the dry cleaners with the paper on it! i nly like the plastic ones and especially wooden ones. |
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| TODAY! |
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| 10:25pm 27/06/2005 |
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OOOOOOHHHH MAN TODAY WAS THE FUCKING SHIT! i haven't ahd this mcuh fun since like last summer12 o god, well for all of my close friends that know what id id 2day.. it was amazing! and not as crazy as i thought, it wa actually alot of fun!
and i biedk SOOO mcuh today! AND GOT A $125 GUESS PURSE FOR $45! YAY FOR ME!
anyhoo, gotta go watch a movie.. AND OMG IWA SIN DANIEL'S BASEMENT TODAY!!!! awwww, a great day!
lates
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| 09:02am 25/06/2005 |
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100 things about me
1. Kindergarten Teachers name: Mrs. Hein
2. Last person you kissed: Lawrence
3. Last word you said: "Bye mom have a good tim at the cottage this weekend"
4. Last song you sang: Yesterdays Fellings- the used
5. Last person you hugged: Gareth last night.
6. Last thing you laughed at: Something in gareths hosue last night.... but i don't recall what was said or whos aid it, i just remmeber laughing for like 15 minutes straight...
8. What's in your CD player: god, the cawthra spring fest cd... i finally got it yesterday and i decided to listen to it when ig ot home.
9. What socks are you wearing: none, im in my pajamas.
10. What's under your bed: some boxes.
12. Current taste: pineapple
13. Current hair style: messy
14. Current clothes: pajamas
15. Current bakery! o ya! you no im cooler than you!
16. Current longing: to go back in time.
17. Current desktop picture: god it's yellow tulips because when i was owkring on my english exam i was sooo strssed, and i thought this could calm me down.
18. Current worry: that I won't pass math.
19. Current hate: my face.
21. Current favorite article of clothing:my cowboy hat... but it's bent out of shape *tear*
22. Favorite feature(s) of the opposite (and same) sex: opposite, wakeboarder but usually someone who can make me laugh (as cliche as hat sounds) Same, a nice nose.... haha i don't know where that one came from
23. Last CD that you bought: my sister nought me the new coldplay one from ottawa.
24. Favorite place to be: out west.
25. Worst place to be: home, alone.
26. Time you wake up in the morning: i always wake up at 6, and then depending on what i ahve to do i usually fall back asleep.
27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: violin
29. Current favorite word/saying: fun in the sun
30. Favorite book: Uh,haven't read in a long time actually.
31. Favorite Movie: right now i would say CLUE
32. Favorite bands and song: NIN, and favourite song right now would be.
35. Favorite day: saturday.
36. Where do you want to go: Vacation-wise I'd really like to get as far way from mississauga as possible.
37. What is your career going to be: Probably something in marketing.
39. What kind of car will you have: something that will look very ski and beach bummish
42. Eye Color: greenish..
43. Hair Color: Brown..
44. Righty or Lefty: right, but i bat and golf left handed.
45. Zodiac sign: Taurus.
46. Innie or Outtie: innie
DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: slovnian, english, itialian... but my dads side has been in canada for 4 generations
68: Shoes you wore today: flip flops
49. Your hair: long, with a billion layers, and since i ahen't had a hair cut for months.... it has billion split ends too.
50. Your weakness: I don't speak up for myself enough. I get jealous easily even though I deny it even to myself. I don't like my physical appearance.
51. Your fears: not enjoying the rest of high school.
52. Your hopes: to feel self fullfilled.
53. Your most recent secret: what i did last night, and how i lied to my dad about it.
54. Your thoughts first waking up: do i HAVE to get out of bed today?!?
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite (same) sex: clothes ( in know im shallow).
56. Your bedtime: whenever my body shuts down... and when im stressed, it's usally REALLY early.
57. Your most missed companion: all of my best friends from other schools.
58. Your perfect pizza: feta cheese and pineapple.
59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: right now sweet in chewy... im about to go make myself chocolate chip pancakes.
61. Dogs or Cats: dogs
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea!!
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate, except in ice cream.
64. Cappuccino or Frappuccino: frappuccino.
65. Smoke: no
66. Curse: Yep
67. Sing: of course
68. Take a shower everyday: sometimes, espcailly now, but i wash my hair every other day
69. Have a crush: not anymore
71. Think you've been in love: not officially
72. Want to go to college: Uh huh. I don't really have a choice, with my parents.
73. Want more than what you’ve got: Who doesn't?
74. Want to get married: yes
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: huh? i don't understand the question.
76. Think you're attractive: No.
77. Think you’re a health freak: Not at this time of the month.
78. Get along with your parents: yes... but no.
79. Play an instrument: yessums.
Have You. In the last Year :
80. Drink: yes
81. Smoke: yes
82. Done a drug: yes
83. Made Out: yes
84. Go on a date: yes
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: o man, try fudgeios, lol.
86. Eaten sushi: eww no, the only type of fish i dont have a desire to try.
87. Been dumped: uh huh. But I've dumped, also =P
88. Made homemade cookies: no, but brownies.
89. Been in love: not officially.
90. Gone skinny dipping: Yeah.
91. Dyed your hair: yup
92. Stolen anything: yes, dogfood when i was little to try and concinved my aprents it was a sign that we should get a dog when it "magically appeared" on our kitchen table
HAVE YOU EVER..
93. Had too much to drink: yes, although it may not have been alot, it was just too much at the the wrong time.
94. Been caught cheating: what.. kind of cheating? no for both that I can think of.
95. Been called a tease: no.
96. Gotten beaten up: yes, by jamie in the 3rd grade.
97. Changed who you were to fit in: who hasn't.
98. Cried at something beautiful: no. I rarely cry.
99. Spent too much money on something you didn’t need: haha hell yes.
100. Cried when someone died: yes.
god that took longer than it hoguht with distractions and shit. im hunfy and im gonna go make myself chocoloate eggos. i ahd a greta time last nghit erica! and tonight will be really good too! |
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| 10:57am 22/06/2005 |
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bored as hell, im going to go eat |
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| A.T.W.A |
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| 10:26pm 03/06/2005 |
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Always Together Whenever Apart... i love you guys sooo much. i had such a kick ass time 2nite... and i know we'll have more of these times to come. With everything to the warm fuzzies to me eating my first pretzel 2nite, we had a blast. O man, it's not even funny how amazing you guys are to me, and how much i treasure our friendship. Summer 2005 is gonna kick sum.... bum! HAHAHA great times.
anyhoo sam, we all love you to death and we're going to visit you as often as we can (yay an excuse for us to go down to toronto). We know you're scared, but we'll be there for every step of the way... and you best believe that our card will literally blow you away. You are an amazing person, and you're so incredibly gorgeous. You are our inspriation to be the best we can be, and i am persoanlly greatful for having you being that shoulder i cried on countless times for the past 8 years that ive had the honor of being your best friend.
Always Together Whenever Apart... i can't wait for the canvas bag!!! |
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| IM A MAGICIAN! lol val |
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| 11:21pm 30/04/2005 |
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hahahha for all of u people whos ay i never update anymroe... HERE WE GO! lol. anyhoo I HAD THE BEST TIME TODAY! hahaha i love you val!
ok well the day strated off with my aprents being gay this morning, and then i wen tot oakville place with my mom and sisters and had great fun at H&M, and they have a killer coasta blanca! and iw as soo upset because their LE CHATEAU had the perfect yellow belle dress for semi! stupid semi being one week to early...
and then i went to val's house and my mokmwe nt the wrong way, and i kpet saying how the house would be on the left ahdn side as opposed to the right (because we were coming up the opposite way on trelawyney) and i was right and my momw as wrong. so i get to val's house, and had such a good time getting ready because i was able to finally talk about everyhting i had to say, and got it ALL out of ym system and i feel sooo uch better!
then we met up with these 3 guys from gonzaga at starbucks at chapters, and they were SOOO NICE! scott, darrell, and matt. and then we ended up going to see bauyt shop and it was HILARIOUS! man o man, i reccommend it to anyone who finds comic relief in my "basketball bases" or XZIBITS little lines in PIMP MY RIDE. in the proccess of the night we say ryan working at starbucks, phil working at new york fries, and carmom and andrew from erindale! it was jokes. then we went to starbucks at chapters, only to WALK across the oparking lot to the other one, because val bluntly said "i don't you to rape us" if they drove us. and we talked, and then the evening ended.
it was sooo much fun! and i had such a great time, a good way to end 2 and 1/2 weeks of feeling like absolute shit. and ewww, i have a les belles performance tomorrow at 9:30! boo! o well, ill suck it up, i only have 3 more rehearsals witht ahtc hoir then im finalyl DONE! pheww, i really need to do sum thinking aout next year.
anyhoo, im planning ym bday party, and if u want to come let me no cause i need to ahve the guest lsit finalzied by monday.
good night to all!
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| 04:13pm 29/04/2005 |
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holy fuck. I am soooo happy that these past 2 weeks are over. O my god, i can't even describe the relief im feeling right now!
haha is tarted writitng this 10 minutes ago... and i got distracted, and now m going to chill with my bitches erica and pam! hahah! this is gonna be great!!! |
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| 05:44pm 11/04/2005 |
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| JACKIE |
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Keen |
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| Last night.... |
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| 07:59am 09/04/2005 |
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Last night when we met again, you seemed so differnt but yet the same old. Wow... even after all these years i still find you more intriguing each time. Except this time, i know you felt the same way too. You've mutured, you've grown. You gave me a moment, you let me talk, you have no idea how happy that made me. I can't wait until we meet again today. |
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| 10:33am 03/04/2005 |
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MY MATH MARK ROSE 40%! BOO YA YOU MATH GODS! I AM GOING TO GET OVER A 89%... I CAN FEEL IT! |
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| I love this song.... |
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| 05:13pm 02/04/2005 |
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You come out at night
That's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
And the vampires roam
You strut your rasta wear
And your suicide poem
And a cross from a faith that died
Before Jesus came
You're building a mystery
You live in a church
Where you sleep with voodoo dolls
And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
You wear sandals in the snow
And a smile that won't wash away
Can you look out the window
Without your shadow getting in the way?
You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
but so careful
When I'm in your arms
Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know it all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin
You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine
Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
Ooh you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
You're building a mystery |
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| JOSH! |
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| 06:30am 01/04/2005 |
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OMG! I JUST CHECKED MY E-MAIL, AND JOSH E-MAILED ME BACK! AYAYA! IM SO HAPPY *BURTS INTO ASHANTI SONG!*.....ewww ASHANTI? sorry im soo happy ive ssemed to lost my pick in actual music.. ow ell g2g get ready for school AND EVEYRONE COME TO EDEN UNITED CHURECH AT 7 2NITE TO WTACH ME SING! YAY!
JACKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| BIRTHDAY PLANS! |
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| 06:06pm 29/03/2005 |
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mood:  giddy music: Rally-Ill Scarlett
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ok...well i nede to know wut i want to do for my 16th birthday in May by this weekened. So this post is gonna be similar to Ambers.... so if u guys ahve any dieas PLEASE comment!
Keep in mind i have a lfit of about 50... and i can NOT definatly ahve a hosue aprty... and i DON'T want to do a going out to a restaurant thing. And iw ant it to be super fun! so if u guys no any good thigns to do.. haha such as renting a pool, or doing sumthiug crazy.. and preferably not a million dollars, that would be GREAT!
COMMENT BACK PLEASE!!!
and if u do.... u might be able to come;)! haha jks. |
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| 09:18pm 24/03/2005 |
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olk to anyone knows about the last entry and who the lucky bachelor behind door #1.... WE R GOING TO NOW REFER TO HIM AS HOLIDAY! ok? capeesh? capoosh. holiday is what jules named my sax... so ok. there we go. yay
HAPPY EASTER TO ALL!
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| 08:58pm 23/03/2005 |
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O MAN I THINIK THE WORLD MIGHT BE GOING CRAZY! i think... that well im feelign sutmhing i haven't felt for over a year... i think i might actually be stratiung to like sum1 realisitic right now.
o man
o man
o man
wut si this feeling? it's either that i lvoe this guy... or that my pistachoip gellatto went dowen a little funny... O MAN FOR $2.09 I BOUGHT MY FIST GELLATO ICE CREAM hahah. so much for the healthy eating.
sdfdfjkn fckjsnfsd
who knew?
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| 10:12am 19/02/2005 |
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based on a few things that have happened in the past day or so... i have come to the decision that live journal is becoming rather pointless for the purpose i got it. i got this to write down things for other ppl to comment on, and to express my views (but appropriate ones).
anyhoo, it seems that views that have been expressed lately (everything from stalking to over-opionated ppl who can't back up wut theyr'e saying) has come way down-hill. i hope you all realzie that (not meaning to sound like a snitch) if sum1 printed off what u posted (if it was in-appropriate) and showed it to the principal... you could be suspsended... or even charged depending on how offenseive it was. remeber that assmembly, kids?
so yes, and if i DO have to express myself... usually it's too personal to write on the internet (private or not)... so I go old fashined and write it on paper.
the point of this entry is, is that my LJ won't be updated as often (if u consider me updating often in the first place) and i will basically be coming on to read about other ppls over-exaggeration things and "problems"... and sumtimes to basically get a good laugh.
the last thing is... if ur going to post anything about me, and u want things to improve with us... say it to my face, and not on sum stupid post. if you're REALLY my friend or anyone who saw what happened to me in grade 9, ud know how understanding and forgiving i am.
anyhoo, tonight is going to rock!
untill proabbly at least 2 months from now...
jack |
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